Changes are just new beginnings, yeah, if you would have told me a year ago, I probably would have laughed right out loud. Not one of those pretend LOL’s, but an actual, on the floor belly laugh. I have never, ever been good with change. This is partly due to the fact that right before D and I said, “Where you go I will go and your God will be my God” we bought the very house I grew up in. And up until my mother passed 12 years ago I had never lived anywhere besides that home and with her in my Aunt’s rental after my parents divorced. But, I’m much too old to ignore the fact that change is inevitable. We were actually created to change, to be transformed, and that can’t happen unless we are willing to follow God where He leads, regardless of how we feel about it. I’ve learned that if I am ever going to not just function, but live abundantly free and thrive in this world than I’m going to have to learn to accept that change really is a good thing.
It seems as though the new thing is to have a word that can carry you through the year. I’ve seen a lot of people posting their words and using those game generators to choose words for 2019. During a moment of wasting time and scrolling through Facebook, I jumped on the bandwagon and used one of those generators myself. I imagine God was having a good laugh at me, because the word that was generated for me was, you guessed it, “Change”. I moaned and groaned, because really God, more change? I mean, how much more change does a family really need?
I don’t imagine that God was laughing at my disgust over more change, but rather the fact that I sat in awe at how often God confirms His Word to us and often it is through silly things like a word generator.
I love spending time with the Lord, reading His Word, studying His Word and having Him speak right to my heart. During this time with God, I journal what the Scriptures are saying to me and how I can apply God’s Word to my own life and circumstances. One thing I’ve noticed, our God speaks in themes and if something is really important and we are missing it, He will not hesitate to repeat Himself until His point is made clear. In November, God began speaking Isaiah 43 over my life.
Isaiah 43:18-19 (NASB)
43:18 “Do not call to mind the former things, Or ponder things of the past.
19 “Behold, I will do something new, Now it will spring forth; Will you not be aware of it? I will even make a roadway in the wilderness, Rivers in the desert.”
I believed at the time that God was beckoning me to let go of some past hurts between D and myself. Our marriage had been in chaos since we moved to Missouri and more often than not, we wondered if it was time to call it quits. Not just on the homestead, but on each other. I was having a difficult time letting some of these past hurts go and I really felt as though God was encouraging me that if I would obey Him and let go of these things, I would see that He was doing something new in our marriage. And He was…..He was absolutely speaking to these issues in D’s and my marriage.
But, that wasn’t the only area He was speaking over.
At the time, I didn’t realize that He was going to take a broken, hurting marriage and use that very situation to catapult D and me and our whole family into something absolutely brand new. Homesteading is definitely not new. We’ve grown our own food and have preserved it all before. I’ve canned all kinds of jams, jellies, fruits, meats, veggies, and soups/broths before. We’ve raised and butchered chickens, raised turkeys quite successfully, and are currently raising layers. But the way He has made it possible for us to homestead here at our new property is new.
He has used the last year of disagreements between D and me as an opportunity to teach me that I don’t always need to have my own way. That it is absolutely okay to not be in control of every little detail of my life. As a matter of fact, God likes it so much better when we actually do let Him take the lead. D has learned that I’m not always wrong and I really do have good ideas. He’s learned that I am not a fly by the seat of my pants girl and I really do take the time to learn how to do things properly because frankly, I don’t like making mistakes.
For the first time in the history of discussions between D and I, we actually agree on the placement of the garden, how big it should be, how big the beds should be, and what our budget is. We agree about how many pigs we’d like to raise, where we are going to put them on our property, and how big of a pen they are really going to need. We are agreeing on where and how to acquire the materials we need. Our resources were depleted at the first house, so we have very little funds that we can actually work with. So free or ridiculously cheap is the way we are going to have to this. And we agree, about finances and a budget…..that is a miracle in itself! ha!
God really does work all things to the good for those who love Him. He really does make all things new. D and I for the first time in I can’t recall how long, are actually in unity and agreement. Of course, we haven’t started building anything yet, we are just in the planning stages, but I’m believing God for great things!
Oh and before I forget! One more pretty awesome change that has happened here in our home. Our 16-year-old was baptized on New Year’s Eve! She gave her life to Christ over the summer and had just been waiting for our church to hold a baptismal service. We are so proud of her and so excited that she made a public confession of faith!